Tuesday, June 5, 2012

visions of sugared plums... smashed on your head....



I saw him. Vincent's brother and I went to walk off my restlessness from being on my back recovering for the last hand. I decided the cliffs would be a good place considering the last time I went to the waterfalls park I ended up captive. I walked up the path and when I reached the summit.. he was there. With some man I have not seen with him before. He was surprised to see me alive. Apparently he assumed his sister would have my death upon my return.. Seeing him has reminded me of the reasons why we parted.. We spoke of his children.. and I was informed of the addition of twin sons. I was in shock. I once wanted nothing more then to be in Sam's place. To be the mother of the children of Ar's future, to be free at his side to take my caste and to live and love freely. As a slave I would never be those things.. a realized after he sold me that I was too proud to be either his woman or his slave. I could not give up my love for him and step aside for this woman that had taken my place. A place that was never mine in the first place. I know this now by the way he looks at me when I kneel before him now... I.. well I am only a slave..

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