In the end..

In the end.. it was clear..we could not come back to the place we started out in. The adventure in the sands, the return and subsequent return to slavery... the prison and the polotics of a city and its underground, the Free companion.. the children.. in the end... it was all too much for our already shaky foundation and in the end.. he sold me. I should of never resubmitted myself... that was the straw I think. I should of been the free companion.. the mother of the children.. the woman who named the future of Ar. In the end.. I was weak.. and I submitted to his dominion over me.. and when it was finally the ruin of it all. He sold me. I loved him too much to be able to share. I think it was hard too for him to feel the same way he had once for me after finding out he had the feelings he had with his woman... when once it was some kind of plan to bring about her ruin.. in the end he loved her and there was no stopping that. I am a jealous woman.. and as a slave it could not be tolerated. He was no longer pleased with me.. my behavior was wretched.. I don't blame him for selling me back to the sleen trainer.. I just wish I had been stronger when we returned to Ar.. I wish I would of taken the sleen bt the tail and told him how much I loved him and wanted to be for him what Samantha is now... You know what they say about hindsight...