Osts and Sleen

     My I dont know where to start. I have been still without my owners now for so long I fear they may not return. I am growing weary of going through the motions everyday. As a slave I continue to do what is expected of me... but yesterday I made a huge mistake. A man who comes from the same steamy hot desert as the Pasha has been my obsession as of late. Whenever my chores are done at the estate I usually go to the waterfalls park and look for him and Uppity. At his feet I always end up. I cant help myself. There is something about this man that is different then most. I made a huge mistake yesterday like I said I usually will go to his side and settle on my belly until he deams it fit to allow me to kneel up and speak. Yesterday I came to the clearing and I spoke to him outloud from a standing position even before I had a chance to kneel at his feet. I was stupid. He is a man greatly vested in his culture and I up and opened my mouth like a foul mouthed wench spewing words at him without permission or care. Im an idiot. He will probabally never let me be at his feet again. I can only Imagine what he was thinking when he struck me last night. It will take alot of begging to get him to notice me again.. I think. If he ever will again. I just wish I would of used my head. Maybe subconsiously I wished to offend him so that I would be punished. I have not been disciplined or punished for a damned thing in so long maybe I did it so I could feel the reprocussions of my actions for once. I can see that maybe being stupid but true. I suppose I could soul search on that a bit. I have a nice bruise on my cheek and a busted lip to remind me of my idiocy. Hopefully he will forgive me when next I see him.