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There was a man outside the gates of my Mistresses Estate last night. He looked old and haggared and mean. I stopped there and knelt before him and asked him if there was anything I could do for him and he just looked down at me for several moments and called me by name. The man happened to be Master Aiden... the first man that owned me after I was taken in the raid so many years ago. He obviously was not born to someone who was stablized and he himself did not ever receive the serums because he was very old. He told me it was because of Thassa. I think he was just making excuses. I asked him why he had come there and he said he had a dream, and wanted to see me before he died.. to make sure I had faired well in my bondage. I was his first slave way back in the day... We had taught eachother alot about love and forgiveness. I wonder sometimes if he would not of given me away so long ago if I would still be his. He said he had to be rid of me because loving me made him weak. I hate that... but it was true... towards the end of his ownership of me we were both softened and weakened by love. Some day perhaps we will be able to talk about it without bitterness. Once he realized I was alive and Okay... he left.. without saying anything except... " be well slave.. and serve well " I do not think he will be alive much longer and for that... I am sad.. I wish Master Khadim and Mistress Lyrana would come home... I miss them like crazy.

mourning

     Still I sit on the grass in the center courtyard garden wondering if I will ever again see the Man and Woman who own me. The Captain's garrison is currently out on patrol so it is only I and the Sleen trainer on the property. There are times when I wish I didnt care about those who own me so much because then it would be soooo easy to just run away and not have to give two craps when it if they returned. its hard on me though. I am a slave used to service and there is no one here to serve. Perhaps I will head out to the Hot Springs or the Waterfalls and see if any of the old slave wenches from the past are about to cheer me up.

back and forth.

     For envars I have been the slave of one Lyrana Ama of Ar. Long before even she became the life companion of the Pasha of the Oasis of Nine Wells, Khadim Alzhared. It was with him that our quiet lives changed forever. We have been traveling back and forth between his lands and ours in Ar for so long now I do not even know where we are most times. Its either sand or towering marble cylinders and all sorts of forrest, mountains and oceans of all inbetween. It was just recently I was sent back to Ar with the garrison of my Mistress to tend to the house on her family land "Sleen Estates" it is within Ars juristiction just outside the walls. The place is a sleen breeders compound and sleen roam the grounds being trained all the time. I am the only slave within th compound... that is besides Uppity and I have yet to see her or the captain since my return. I think with the trainers permission, when I finish the rooms for the children and the Pasha and my Mistress this afternoon I will beg to go to the parks and see if any of the slaves, or Free Persons I know are still about. I miss my owners and the prattle of children... I wish they would not of sent me back to Ar alone.